Wellness world suicide? Yes? No?
When did we get so caught up in what the hell everybody else was doing?
Whilst upside down in downward dog, I had an epiphany…I don’t like Yoga, shaking my booty, yes, Yoga, a resounding no. Yet I get my arse on the mat to push myself through something I don’t enjoy and if I am honest, it is because I feel like I should. Not that I should for my health (which would be a much more valid response) but because it is what everyone I love and respect in the blog-esphere says is good for me, physically & spiritually. (Read: everyone else is doing it & therefore so should I).
When did I stop listening to myself and what I enjoy? When did I become such a follower?
I really should change the title I suppose; see I don’t, not like Yoga. (What woman? You are making no sense!) I love watching it, I am marvelled that the human body can contort in such beautiful ways, make stunning shapes and show so much graceful strength. I love the idea of Yoga, it is just that when I do a class myself I don’t enjoy it at all. I clock watch. I wish it was over, not because my body is tired but because I am bored. I would rather watch the gorgeous person next to me!
A friend raised the question ever so gently, could it be because of my new found fleshy body? Is it getting in the way of being bendy? I had a serious think about that, maybe… but I don’t really think so. I don’t know if there was ever a time I REALLY loved it, I did it, but why?
I do love stretching, just not the class part! I don’t feel the mind/body connection I have heard so much about in this setting, the connection with the breath, for me doesn’t happen, maybe for that reason I am one of those people who truly NEEDS Yoga, for what we resist persists and what we struggle with is what we truly need?
For now though, I say No.
So, I will own it; I don’t like Yoga. One day soon I may love it again, but until that day I will simply stretch, relax and rejuvenate in the ways that truly light me up, because surely that is a better solution anyway.
I would love to hear your thoughts, is there something you feel you ‘should’ do that you don’t really like, but do it anyway?
Much love, em x