Being. Reaching. Pushing.
Yesterday I tried something a little different. The most simple, natural thing to do. I just was…No pushing, no reaching, no striving. I made a conscious decision to just be. It was beautiful.
Funnily enough I didn’t realise this was the case until my bus trip to work this morning. A link I had opened from a beautiful friend days ago and listened to intently was still open and when trying to access something else on my phone, it came front and centre randomly, like a perfect punctuation from the universe.
Yesterday I spent time with my dad. He is sick and when I say sick, I mean he is life threateningly ill. The time we spend together is so precious to me but ordinarily I am so on edge, so planned, so organised with what I will say, what I will do that I forget to actually be there. My mind is going a 100 miles an hour. My heart is in my throat.
The most important thing that we have for one another at this time is our presence and so often, unknowingly, we don’t really give that to one another.
Yesterday was a different story. We just WERE, without even trying, without having to hustle, without having to think. I was his daughter and he was my Dad, it was a simple day of sitting in the sun, having a little lunch and a few laughs. Something we haven’t had for a while due to his illness and the nature of life in general, but yesterday we were both there, we were both present and damn it was beautiful.
Where in your life can you be more present, even if just for a moment today?
P.s If you would like to listen to the audio that inspired me this morning please head over to http://jennaward.com.au/audio-blog-push/ Although Jenna is speaking of ambition and purpose, her words inspired me to look at where else in my life I usually push and where, if I am able to let go of attempting to control a situation and actually let myself be, I can be a creator of something exquisitely beautiful.
Much love, em x