Cluttered Mind, Cluttered Life? | I Am Not So Sure



Lately I have been feeling a bit scattered. A little more left of centre than usual. There has been a lot going on around the place and in the quiet moments, I wonder how well I am actually coping with it all. Losing my Dad has been one of the toughest things I have ever had to face, on top of that we lost a beloved puppy, work has been a bit ordinary and I can’t get on top of my weight. ANNOYING.


I noticed the other day how untidy I had let my space become. Now don’t get me wrong, I am far from a clean freak, I am an organised chaos kinda girl (I have several ex flatmates that would back me up on that one) but I had started a possession cull after reading Tara’s book, HIGH – A Party Girls Guide to Peace and stopped mid way through. Like, stuff pulled out of cupboards, boxes galore to be taken to the recycling. That kind of thing! (How embarrassing, I promise I am not a super slob. Much!)


No one had been visiting me at home, so I didn’t seem to care, I mean I was the only one who had to see it, wasn’t I. Earlier this week my brother came for dinner so I was forced to tidy up a little (thank God!). As I was cleaning, I couldn’t help but wonder (Carrie Bradshaw writing moment right there!) was my house a reflection of what was going on in my head, or was it the other way around?


Was I feeling scattered because my house was?


Albert Einstein is quoted as saying “If a cluttered desk is the sign of a cluttered mind, of what, then, is an empty desk a sign?” I have always been in this camp. Organised Chaos baby!


But it did get me thinking, whether I had let things slide, because I didn’t feel the need to take care of myself, because quite frankly it didn’t matter? I am still really not sure. I do know that I do feel a little better after the small amount of clutter purging I have done, maybe it was just time to let those things go.


So I will keep my chaotic desk and I will continue to possession purge, just in case it is those pesky little things holding me back.


When was the last time you had a good clear out? How did it make you feel? Are you an organised chaos girl like me? I would love to hear from you in the comments below.


Much love, em x

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    April 3, 2015 at 11:28 am

    Em, I could talk purging and decluttering all day long with you! I’m pretty much a minimalist in mind. Still working on ridding my self of stuff, but to me, stuff equals stuff in my mind. So clearing stuff definitely helps my thoughts and my head space. Because of this I rarely tidy up. There is just no need because I have no stuff. But, I completely relate to what you said about letting things slide because you feel the need to not take care of yourself or because you aren’t taking care you let things slide. I notice that those two things kind of go hand in hand with me. So I know when I feel that way, a good clean and clear really helps xx

    You make a great Carrie! Love ya xx

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    April 3, 2015 at 12:51 pm

    Hi Em. 🙂 One of my ex-boyfriends’ mothers used to say to me (lovingly, mostly), “Rachael, a tidy house is a tidy mind. ” I used to then jokingly respond that she had carte blanche access to my linen closet any time she pleased. 😉 I was 32 at the time and it’s only been in the past year (7 years later) that it has fully dawned on me (in every fibre of my being, actually) as to the deep truth of those simple words. I now take a little inspired action each day to create a home environment that SUPPORTS & NURTURES my internal environment. This works for me. Maybe experiment with the above, just a little each day & see what happens. Keep us posted. 🙂


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    Chloe | One Infinite Life
    April 5, 2015 at 8:58 am

    I love how everyone is so different. I am definitely not an organised chaos kind of gal.
    When my external environment is scattered – I feel scattered. And when I’m scattered my external environment usually reflects that as well.
    I loved that part in Tara’s book and I love purging my possessions as well. It always makes me feel lighter and strangely more abundant.

    PS. I loved your Carrie Bradshaw writing moment!

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    Karen Tren
    May 27, 2015 at 3:40 pm

    Oh Em! Yes when my environment is in chaos… Then so is my mind. And I suspect my environment stays in chaos because the rest of me is/was…. It’s a cycle I find pretty hard to break with little people who want me 24/7 (or so it seems!) and who see a clear floor or surface as an invitation to throw shit around!!
    I quite enjoy decluttering and purging when I get the chance. I do find I get stuck mid project though!!!
    Trudging on!

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