Lately I have been feeling a bit scattered. A little more left of centre than usual. There has been a lot going on around the place and in the quiet moments, I wonder how well I am actually coping with it all. Losing my Dad has been one of the toughest things I have ever had to face, on top of that we lost a beloved puppy, work has been a bit ordinary and I can’t get on top of my weight. ANNOYING.
I noticed the other day how untidy I had let my space become. Now don’t get me wrong, I am far from a clean freak, I am an organised chaos kinda girl (I have several ex flatmates that would back me up on that one) but I had started a possession cull after reading Tara’s book, HIGH – A Party Girls Guide to Peace and stopped mid way through. Like, stuff pulled out of cupboards, boxes galore to be taken to the recycling. That kind of thing! (How embarrassing, I promise I am not a super slob. Much!)
No one had been visiting me at home, so I didn’t seem to care, I mean I was the only one who had to see it, wasn’t I. Earlier this week my brother came for dinner so I was forced to tidy up a little (thank God!). As I was cleaning, I couldn’t help but wonder (Carrie Bradshaw writing moment right there!) was my house a reflection of what was going on in my head, or was it the other way around?
Was I feeling scattered because my house was?
Albert Einstein is quoted as saying “If a cluttered desk is the sign of a cluttered mind, of what, then, is an empty desk a sign?” I have always been in this camp. Organised Chaos baby!
But it did get me thinking, whether I had let things slide, because I didn’t feel the need to take care of myself, because quite frankly it didn’t matter? I am still really not sure. I do know that I do feel a little better after the small amount of clutter purging I have done, maybe it was just time to let those things go.
So I will keep my chaotic desk and I will continue to possession purge, just in case it is those pesky little things holding me back.
When was the last time you had a good clear out? How did it make you feel? Are you an organised chaos girl like me? I would love to hear from you in the comments below.
Much love, em x